Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Porn


So I looked at some bad porn yesterday. Not something I usually do. I felt guilty and I had a bad feeling inside. I texted EH and told him that I had looked at porn and I felt yucky and dirty. We have never discussed this before. It wasn't a rule that I don't look at porn. We've never come across this issue. I think he was taken aback somewhat. He asked when and where and if I was ok. I texted back "on my phone, and yes I'm ok". Then he wrote that he was very disappointed in me and he would punish me when he came home tonight. I agreed. I didn't like the feeling I had and I wanted a spanking to help me get over it. I felt better knowing he cared.

When he came home we ate a nice dinner and he helped me clean up afterwards. He told the boys that he and I were going to go to the grocery store, which we did. On the way home he drove past our turn and continued to drive a little ways out of town. He turned off the highway and parked on a hill. It was dark and very peaceful. He opened my door and led me out of the car. He talked to me about the dangers of porn sites, and to be very careful what I do on the internet. He said if I want to look at porn we would look together. He motioned me to lean over the back of the car. He pulled up my jacket and pushed my pants down. He began slapping my bottom with his hand. He slapped many times and it was beginning to be painful. His hand must have started to hurt because he stopped for a moment and I heard the jingle of his belt being removed. Usually I would panic a little with the sound of his belt coming off. This time I welcomed it because I knew I needed it. Although with the first spank it took my breath away! And the spanks kept coming! It was hurting more than I expected! I was having a hard time standing still. He moved me into position a couple of times and when I moved again he stopped the spanks and demanded me to get back into place and stand still!  I did what I was told because he had that threatening tone in his voice and I knew it was time to accept the spanking or it was going to get even worse. So I settled down and took the spanks. It was so difficult! It hurt so badly. I yelled out but I managed to stay still. And then finely he finished. I stayed in place while he put his belt back on. He took me in his arms and held me for awhile. I wanted to cry but I can't. Nothing else needed to be said. We got into the car and drove home. I'm thankful for a husband who loves and takes care of my needs and holds me accountable.

12 comments:

  1. This was me a few months ago as you know. I'm so glad you told him and that he helped cleanse you from that yuckiness.

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  2. I found your blog through Ronnie and thought I'd come by and say hey. I like the way your husband took charge and how well you accepted it.

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  3. Hello and welcome to the community. I agree with PK, he certainly handled it well.

    I hope you enjoy blogging.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. Thanks Ronnie, I enjoy blogging, wish I had time to commit to it more.

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  4. Just stopped over to say hi! Welcome! Glad you both are doing so well with TTWD!

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  5. Found you through Ronnie's blog, so have come to say hello! You write with great honesty. And your guy sounds like the business. Strict and kind.
    Happy blogging!!

    BBxx

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    1. Thanks Blackbird, I never thought about it but yes I do like to write honest things from my heart. And yes things can be strict and kind but not always! We play around a lot too :)

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  6. Thank you for reading my blog. Thanks for welcoming me into blog land. I've been a lurker for some time now. It feels good to write about ttwd and share it with a community with like minded people.

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  7. Hi there!

    Sounds like he knows what you need. :D

    I wish we lived somewhere less urban...

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    1. Thank you for the comment Julia and thank you for reading my blog. Urban is nice but we are popular here for 4 wheeling and off road. We have to be careful, they come up on their ATV's from out of no where! Haha, but we've never been caught.
      I love reading your blog!

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